How glad can i be ? Looking back n now...i feel like a coward which i don think i will be in e past...i thought i could managed "it " well ...however ...not only i does not ...but worse i don dare to face it n would rather run away from it...it have been a suffer ,a burden...i guess is e same to u ...nothing more i can said ...nothing less i have done ...overall sry will e only word i can think of...i dare to take but don dare to let go ...so wad everyone ard said i dragonboater ...i'm strong ...but inside me how many really know i tat weak ...as weak as i hate to be...i guess none ...how hoping tat i can be like e show , drama , fairy tales ...tat have all those gd ending ...but i was wrong ...this thinking make me a inmature little boy who is stubborn n wont grow...n i jus scare ...what shall i do ...what must i do ...how can i improve... how i can grow...y am i so stubborn ...y am i so inmature ...where can i find back happyiness ...where can i find back my courage ...when can i find back myself ...there more question tat lies within it ...n i so lonely in e dark ...but i guess ...none will help neither will i take help from other ...LIFE IS NOTHING BUT A STRING OF DIFFICULT PROBLEMS...ONLY THOSE WHO MAKE THE MOST CORRECT CHOICES WILL HAVE E LEAST SUFFER N SURVIVE... but i was left to die ...hais ...Loving someone can be a easy things as u see...but it can be hell if it wan to be ...
waiting 4 u to come back to me , Tuesday, November 4, 2008 11/04/2008
