It coming to an end ... holiday ~~~it so fast that one month have past ...it feel as though like one week ?!? ...maybe everyday my life it e same that y i feel that is fast ... doing nth but watch show n watch show n watch show till morning den sleep ... finish watching下一站 幸福 in 3 day , 就想賴著妳 in 2 day or so cant rmb ... so imagine ...i sit down watching all day long !!!but is a touching n nice show ... so many time let u feel like wanted to know wad will happen next n stuff ... haha

well well ... we cant really stop time ah ... i still rmb in sec sch ... stealing alcohol , sweet all that n so but thinking back now... i gg to become old le ...seriously i don feel like i am gg to be a 19 year old guy this year at all ... that is able to buy cigarette, getting in to pub or club or buy alcohol or even 4D ??when young ... getting all interested in all those except smoking ... but now when i can do it ... i simply think is a waste of money to even try it ...that how my life is ahh ... simply can call me a noob ... being 18 4 like half year le but haven go into pub or club ...but i simply don regret it ... since i now need to save ton n ton of money ... hell man !!! i need to save so much that it such a headache ... but nvm sch is starting so hope to eat in sch often den can save money le ...


well as time past i start to realize ... that is no forever friend nor love ... that e reality ...when thing started to change ... is time to said goodbye ...no more "use to " or "if " anymore ... cos it not useful at all ... one month will past soon enough ... n i will tell myself its time to said goodbye ... my friendS ... not that we wont meet ... but is simply not easy or use e word "hardly able to ba ".. i guess only one person know wad i toking abt ahh .. in one month time .. seriously is hard to accept or take it ... but that how life work ... GET LOSE IF U R POOR OR WEAK !!! haha... well not that serious case but it jus affect me that much that i felt so uncomfortable ba ...



Oh ya if i not wrong 3 or 4 day back ... i have a dream i dono am i awake anot =.=... is like a dream but also like i am thinking of it meaning day dreaming haha dono laa... dream of e moment when i gg unconscious...dream of e weight that when i let go n my finger jus gg numb n break already ... dream of e operation i having where i see my out of shape hand after injection n stuff ....it hurt n i feeling like omg it repeating in my mind again n agian dono should i said happy or wad lei ... dono how to describe ... it feel gd that i able to take it n everything but now thinking back ...it same thing happen again i dono i can be so brave anot lei ... taking it again ...nvm ... i jus trying to said ... when i injure that time ...i scared but i take it all ...but now if same thing happen again ... i don think i can take it like e 1st time ... but i dono y i will think back all this stuff...i guess i too tired to even notice am i even sleeping anot ... haha this few day i really tired out ...





IF U THINK ALL THESE PIC IS SICK N DISGUSTING that rite... IS MY HANDS ... my injure hand ...once use to look so DISGUSTED ... BUT IS STILL MY HAND after all ...it jus like a PROCESS ...when at a START u get HURT ...den u go 4 operation with injection n stuff to get heal up end up in a bandage ... later slowly e bandage get SMALLER ...n when it is time n e wound is able to SUPPORT itself e yellow harden blood can be remove n slowly follow by e metal ... n SLOWLY ALONG WITH TIME ...e wound totally HEAL UP BUT LEAVING A SCARE DOWN THERE !!!

Wasn't it jus like a relationship where u get hurt n it take time to heal bit by bit till u will be able to support yrself up n start to let go ...but even if it u let go ... no matter wad ... it still leave a scare deep down in yr heart ... rite .. hais