Finally i gg to blog again ... i dono where my life is heading ...seriously i have no idea how it is gg to be ... but i guess if i did something wrong den let it wrong all e way ba ... 1st i wont go to anymore outing with that group anymore ...not that i angry ...but as a group is jus so hard to arrange so hard to pls everyone .. so hard to even decided a common idea of how our outing we wan to be .. as a group there jus so much disagreement . there too much forcing here n there ... i really wont wan a nice outing to be ruin by me anymore ... i decided to leave it ... Gdbye should be 4 year plus group friend... meet personally out one by one i find it better i guess ... nvm ..next i really sad ... all my friend r now attach ...working in mooncake is rather tough ah ... all finding gf 4 me now ah !!!i dono should i said thx or should i feel sad sia .. is a joke isnt it ... haa ...y jerone not there at least someone will be with me SAME !!! wahaha ...ok not in e mood to joke ... but since year one till now ... lifestyle start to change isnt it ... slowly hope lucas got his gf ... =) ben n phebe , benson n saylee , derek n fm , wei jian n liang eng , all in this group r all attach ...though all i know quite well especially ben n phebe like super close with any of them... however sometime said when there is a gap between there really have ... i jus dono how to put it to word is like so close with them yet knowing there a gap in between that line ... well i don use hope ...everyone last long n wait till i join man !!!by e time Amy le no need find liao ... hais ...Next thing have been really stress ... i think i sick till dono wad i am doing le ... report finish logbook one more week to do only , but there jus alot of stress within myself , with R ... n many more ... exam coming ... essay is alot of stress ... i feel it now already idk y ... work after sch till late sep , exam oct , n not to forgot driving ...after that friend go other country to enjoy , to dono where , some sch outing to Germany , den wad do i do den ... at hm all day alone ba ... seriously i a no life person ever since i go poly ... i really miss those time where friend r so much closer , so much nearer , where i feel so much comfortable n better .. but miss is still a miss ... have to come back to reality somehow ...

i try every meant to win back ... but in reality we can be friend only den let be ba ... i feel that my brain have over burn n use not 4 study but to stress myself up over many many occasion jus 4 that moment to make u happy , but in reality it last less den a day of happyness but i upset u e rest of e month , in such a way ... there is wad use ??... relationship is nvr abt giving but security n feeling , if u feel so insecure den there no point 4 me to change , cos no matter how i change i am who i am ... i really dono how ... it drag long enough isnt it , everytime back to square one n history repeated itself dono how many countless times ... it have become a habit isnt it .. it so hard to let go , is so hard to bear with it as well ... i lost ...i really dono wad i aiming n heading ... hais ...