When having sip , i hope 4 holiday , When it is holiday , i hope sch faster start man ... totally bored of my life ...i have been thinking 4 quite some time ... wad is my purpose in life where i don like so many thing , a very major one i guess is communication ,well is jus harder to trust other with e condition i experiencing ...day by day ... i losing faith with e word friend ...wad r they , y do they come into yr life , n in another moment they disappear ...y do i feel so weird in a way when they r there 4 me den i thought is better 4 me to leave ...it is really my own prob , or is it others , i wonder ... whenever i wonder abt thing , there wont be a finally ans ...in e end same question will come back to u again e next time round ...

Is it becos of e word "trust " ... i rmb when i was in pri sch teacher will ask : wad i wan to be when i grow up ?policeman ? ...at that time is so easy to ans this question becos u don have any doubt abt it , u simply trust yrself u can make it ... u can become one of it ...but now , having too many doubt i don even dare to dream anymore ...wad can i dream on being gd in study ...nah ... being strong in gym ... nah ...if think carefully during e time in dragonboat was really my strongest period ...being good in game or computer as if i got play like that ... being friendly to other ... i guess i leaving one by one ... i don even trust myself in anything i can do anymore ....how to trust others???ppl r enriching themselves in their life each day ...is jus hard to catch up to them ... overtime it really become a pressure n stress which i think i really lose confident in ...

Rite now ... i guess wad i really miss most is a camp ...where ppl dono each other n it was like a new beginning where is start from introduce ...but it only last a while ...so is useless ... nth help ...

hmm jus some random posting with some random thoughts ...

11 more days to my birthday ... i still wondering ... y ppl call it Happy birthday ...y cant be Sad birthday , if on that day , i don feel happy nor excited at all but is a birthday but den y ppl call it a HAPPY birthday , i don understand ,

Anyway no offend , this year like jus any other year ... i don wan to celeb it ... i don think much ppl will read my blog but ...whoever read it ...Really no offend ... not i bigshot or wad ... i jus give up ...simple on this day ... is nth special ...maybe 3 group of u may help me cele

1)All r my friend ...but everyone come in pair , only me , i don wan to feel disappointed in a way that only me r single . i also don like it if u all come but without e other half .. i don like it as well cos all r my friend haiya ... i dono how to explain laaa...

2) No point rushing ...is jus a night ... n i guess is better off u take yr time n maybe have yr dinner with e other maybe a victory dinner also if it happen to be that day as well ? jus feel that u r busy enough... don wan u to rush ... take yr time n relax ba ... other day would be e same ...

3) Though everything is already plan on 31st ...but i guess i really don wan it to be on that day ... u should know y ...

if anyone of u read u know which group u r in ...seriously no offend abt anything ... is jus a day cele anot doesnt really matter ...beside ... now is morning 6.17am ... later when i wake up i gg to buy myself a big present le ... with it ..is gd enough le ... that all i wan to post ... if jus so happen no one read ...guess have to reject one by one making myself more guilty n worst only ... hais ...